Big Change of Duhita's World

You didn’t know how big the change of my life is in the last 30 days. I used to be an ordinary undergraduate student. Now I am gonna be an employee on a hospital. Just wait a while. I have been working as a trainee there for about a month to show how well I can work, so they could hire me if they thought I am worth it.  A month is not a short time.  I had to leave my college, and I left some of mid-exams, assignments, my presences. It really drove me crazy. In this 2 weeks, I have to wait for the decision of the company management whether or not I am hired. So, I come back to college, and it’s superrrrr hard for me. I left everything about school, I feel like I have to study everything from zero. And I do.

Yesterday, it was the last day of final exam in this semester. It was exciting to know that even though I was in hiatus for a month, I am sure I aced the tests. I was so confident about the result. I don’t know if I have to be back to college—and not to work in the hospital, so I study as hard as I used to to pursue one of my dreams. Cum Laude.

By the way, I tell you that I will work in a hospital which is faaar away from my current city. Do you still remember my auntie I have told you about in this post? I would work in the hospital where she works.

Knowing so far away the workplace is from my house, I had no choice but to quit studying in my current college. I have to start over again in Situbondo. But I still love Accounting, I’ll never change this. And cum laude remains one of my dreams. It would be super special as I need to balance my work and my college to make it happens.

My life is changing rapidly. I never thought that I would get a chance to live in my auntie’s home, and to work in the same workplace. I even didn’t feel ready to work in this age. I’m 19 and I thought I was still a child. Working is a whole new experience. It’s totally different with school life, college life, and other life I have been experienced before. Sometimes I am frightened to face it. It’s like living in the real world, and facing ‘cold world’. Luckily, a month I’ve been through as a trainee made me a little bit feel positive about it. It’s not as scaring as I thought as long as I work properly and trying to be a nice kid to everyone.

I am sure there must be more challenges for me to be a winner. Despite of so much worry I ever felt, I am ready to face them.

I am sure I am a winner. :)

So Far So Good

Mathematical Economic Paper Test: My Mood Booster

I’ve promised myself to post onto this blog again after struggling in final exam this semester. Here I come back. I’m nearly in the end of holiday. The reason why I didn’t write from the beginning of this holiday is because I’ve lost my pleasure in reading lately. Social media has changed my life. When I woke up, the first thing I reach every morning is my cell phone. I text my boyfriend and some of my friends to say ‘good morning’. Without waiting the reply, I hit facebook and twitter either to updating statuses or just checking my notifications. If I get bored, I play Scrabble, I now have it in my phone. It really drove me crazy. I used to love that game in PC like mad. After I have it in my phone, I can’t stop holding my phone to play it. Then back to social media whenever I want.

My holiday is just like that. No reading activity anymore. Lack of reading activity affects my writing activity too. I became feeling like not want to write, no pleasure. It is difficult to deliver what’s on my mind. I feel like don’t get used to it anymore like I used to. Plus, I must write in English. Do you know why I made this blog in full-English? I know I’m not an American nor a British, my English is bad. So I think I need to practice, to improve it. At least I will get used to it. Reading English literature is my power. If I don’t read English literature regularly, my English will get worsen and worsen. Like in this post, I’m sorry for my bad English. 

If you read this post, you know that I’m succeed in getting right back up and writing again. I don’t know. Maybe it’s a miracle. Hahaha. I suddenly feel like I have bunch of stories to tell you. And no boundaries between us. I don’t care what people say, I will tell you the real me, without trying so hard to ‘jaga image’ (what is it in English?) ummmm…. Let me think it over first. Hahaha. you guys from Indonesia know what it means.

A month ago, I fight for myself in final exam. It is a special occasion for me as the 30% of my GPA is taken from my final exam grades. You know I want to graduate with cum laude. So I won’t let anyone takes my dreams away. Include myself. I pushed myself up to my limit. Reading the books until I understand each part of them is one of the proofs that I’m keeping my dream real. I don’t care if the books are thick and heavy. I go ahead. 

Fyi, the exam takes 4 days, held in 4 rooms. I was in the 4^th room, with only 4 of my classmates. I sat in the first row, right in front of the visors. I was far away from my 4 classmates. The students around me are people I barely know. So, it is almost impossible for me to cheat. I also didn’t bring my cell phone with me during the test. Even if I did, I definitely didn’t dare to use it. The visors’ eyes were always glued to me! And it was never my intention to do the test with any others’ help. Cheating is not my style! 

Sometimes, the students I barely know ask me the answers of the questions in the test. I am okay to give them help. As long as it didn’t bother me in finishing the test. 

So far so good. I got a good feeling for the result. I’ve worked hard, always prayed, and believe that I would nail the test. My Mathematical Economic mid-semester exam grade which was shown to me at the first day exam really boost my mood. I’ve got 97. Not perfect, but I thought I’ve done my best. I had to finish the Mathematical Economic test in only 30 minutes. It had 9 numbers. So I’ve done it in a little bit hurry, thanks God its result is not bad.

I’m currently waiting for the whole result, how high my GPA is.  Up to now, there is no clarification about it. It’s been a month since the semester ends. I don’t have any idea about when the GPA will be announced. This is my first semester, so I am really a newbie in this university. Oh, please, I can’t wait to see my GPA. 

A couple of days ago, my lecturer posted the Management final exam grade into my class group in facebook. Guess what? I got 96! Yay! Again, it’s not perfect. But I did it myself. I could say that I aced the test. the 91-100 grade will be ‘A’ if it is converted. If I got A in every subjects, my GPA will be 4,00. And cum laude would be much easier in the next semesters! But, I’ll try to be more realistic. Okay, 4,00 is absurd. At least I want to have 3,52 with A and B everywhere. I don’t like C, D, and E (please don’t let me see them).

To be frank, the subject I worry the most is Economic. I never think it’s difficult. But I don’t know why I got E in the mid-exam. Can you imagine? I got E! it’s the worst thing in the world. I was nearly hopeless at that time, wonder what went wrong. It was so embarassing. When I told my friends about it, all they did is just laughed at me. ooooohhh, it freaked me out. :@ I can only hope that my Economic average is at least B. and I work much much much much harder than ever to get the best grade in final exam. Pleasseeee, I don’t want the E anymore!