I totally lose my confidence. I
feel not pretty. No matter how hard I am trying to say that beauty comes from
inner, the fact says that it doesn’t. A flawless girl: tall slim body, white
perfect skin, smooth hair, and fashionable is a beautiful one, without knowing
her personality, ability, intelligence, and so on. Everybody knew that I am not
that type of girl. So, you eventually know that I am not pretty.
I wish I wouldn’t stop to move
forward after realizing this. Can you believe? I almost give up. To boost my
mood in studying, I rely on my love life.
Unfortunately, when in high school, love life never killed me like it
does now. The guys here are neither charming nor handsome. But look at their
girlfriends! No one is ugly. What am I supposed to do then? Nothing. Just praying
and wishing that I hadn’t ever born in this era. Sigh, I want to have a
boyfriend. T.T
Maybe my love adventure has to
stop now. I have been fed up. Since I
was in elementary school, I have been in a love relationship (seriously!).
There were a lot of boys having a crush on me. How did I know? They told me. Most
of them said it with love letter (It was so classic). Some of them said it
frontally, in the school backyard. I am not sure every girl had that experience
like me.
It is a normal way, guys like girls
because their physical appearance. If there were many boys having a crush on
me, it means that I was beautiful at that era. I never put on any make up, any
cosmetics, any beauty treatment. I was naturally beautiful! (I was, not I am.
:( )
I believe that I am not ugly. Absolutely
not. I’m just a little bit lose in following fashion trend, buying make up,
cosmetics, etc. It’s not a big problem, my friend! All I have to do is watching
the girls around me growing up with the ‘beauty pageant’ in college, I keep
pursuing my dreams, and I am gonna WIN! That’s it.
What about my love life? Oh, it’s
not so easy. But it’s not difficult. Being single is not bad for now. Let the
boys out there choose their pretty girls. I don’t care.
