Wednesday, January 9, 2013

I'm now giving in, But I'm gonna WIN



I totally lose my confidence. I feel not pretty. No matter how hard I am trying to say that beauty comes from inner, the fact says that it doesn’t. A flawless girl: tall slim body, white perfect skin, smooth hair, and fashionable is a beautiful one, without knowing her personality, ability, intelligence, and so on. Everybody knew that I am not that type of girl. So, you eventually know that I am not pretty. 

I wish I wouldn’t stop to move forward after realizing this. Can you believe? I almost give up. To boost my mood in studying, I rely on my love life.  Unfortunately, when in high school, love life never killed me like it does now. The guys here are neither charming nor handsome. But look at their girlfriends! No one is ugly. What am I supposed to do then? Nothing. Just praying and wishing that I hadn’t ever born in this era. Sigh, I want to have a boyfriend. T.T

Maybe my love adventure has to stop now. I have been fed up.  Since I was in elementary school, I have been in a love relationship (seriously!). There were a lot of boys having a crush on me. How did I know? They told me. Most of them said it with love letter (It was so classic). Some of them said it frontally, in the school backyard. I am not sure every girl had that experience like me. 

It is a normal way, guys like girls because their physical appearance. If there were many boys having a crush on me, it means that I was beautiful at that era. I never put on any make up, any cosmetics, any beauty treatment. I was naturally beautiful! (I was, not I am. :( ) 

I believe that I am not ugly. Absolutely not. I’m just a little bit lose in following fashion trend, buying make up, cosmetics, etc. It’s not a big problem, my friend! All I have to do is watching the girls around me growing up with the ‘beauty pageant’ in college, I keep pursuing my dreams, and I am gonna WIN! That’s it.
What about my love life? Oh, it’s not so easy. But it’s not difficult. Being single is not bad for now. Let the boys out there choose their pretty girls. I don’t care.
   


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