Real Friend?

I couldn’t sleep last night. I wonder who would be the first saying happy birthday to me. I was waiting until 00.25 am, then I got myself fall asleep. 

My mom woke me up to have sahur (meal before fasting in Ramadan), it was 03.00 am, hoahm… I yawn many times, and want to sleep again, but what about my fasting tomorrow? Would I be strong to fast without sahur? I think no, that was the first fasting this Ramadan. So, I decided to go downstairs to have meal with my family, lazily. As I said in my previous post, the government fixes on Ramadan would begin tomorrow, not today. The decision was an agreement of many Islam organizations in the country on the Itsbat meeting yesterday, minus Muhammadiyah and some of small Islam organizations. It is predicted that most of people in the country go along the government. It means, there are only few people who start fasting today. My family is one of those people.

Though I was still sleepy, and kinda bored, because no national TV channels broadcast Ramadan program, they would do it tomorrow, I guess, waiting for more people have sahur to get much more income from commercial breaks. I somewhat felt so excited to welcome Ramadan. I am grateful to see this Ramadan again, after the last year I was praying and wishing to be in Ramadan this year. FYI, I’m actually not a religious person, but I don’t know, if I could wish more, I wanted every month in a year is Ramadan. It brings happiness out of me.

Not to forget that today is my birthday, I checked my phone and found a message from my boyfriend, saying happy birthday, that’s sweet… He was the first. :)

I checked my facebook’s wall, there was ZERO wall post about my birthday. I had over 4,000 friends, but no one cares of me. :’(

Those who say happy birthday to me, to all of you in facebook didn’t mean that they really care about you. They just know our birthdays from calendar events in facebook. That calendar events show whose birthdays today, tomorrow, the next days. The people didn’t even know just when our birthdays are. They sometimes didn’t know about us. Just post to everyone’s wall randomly.

I knew that reality, because in a couple of days before, I changed my facebook’s privacy setting: Settings-Privacy-Edit Settings “Sharing on Facebook”-Things I Share: Birthday- Only me. The result is my name would never appear in the calendar events. Therefore, no one post on my wall to wish happy birthday.

Last years, my birthday was still shown in calendar events, so it was like all of my friends posted on my wall that I couldn’t thank them one by one. It was nice, but fake.

I love having many friends. But friends who know me at all, who share in my ups and downs, who care of me. I would rather have one friend, but she is true to me than have a million friends, but they didn’t even care of me. :’)

me (in white) and eva, my bff (in pink) :)

This morning, my mom kissed and hugged me, saying happy birthday. So did my dad and my lil bro. I got some happy birthday messages in my cell phone, too from some of my friends. Thank you so much… :’) I LOVE YOU ALL.

love to love them: me, lil bro, n mom

For you, readers, I thank you for your kindness, reading this boring blog. I owe you. I love you. <3 Feel free to comment me and everything in this blog. :)

Happy Fasting!

Xoxo,

Agni